I can almost think cognitively, now. But why do I feel so irritated? Like some tiny finger in my brain is tapping, tapping, tapping, tapping, etc.
Let’s review some highlights from the week:
The daycare lost a part-time client, our elderly neighbor needed us to watch his elderly dog and apartment because he went to the hospital midway through the week. Then, because of said emergency we missed a birthday party that was pretty important to us. That’s the cake now here’s the frosting and sprinkles: children under the age of three come over from 6:30am-5:45pm every day, husband was gone taking finals most of week then gone Friday for appointment out-of-town. And the cherry on top may be that I’m way overdue for some alone time–
I’m sure we could read these events in a number of ways:
1) Angry monster says, “Client had concerns? Well what the @#!$ does she know? She’s an overly protective anxious mess. Good ridden! Actually, good ridden to EVERYONE! I QUIT!”
2) Passive monster says, “Well, #$@% happens. Where’s that bottle of wine?”
3) Depressed monster says, “This kind of stuff always happens to me. Why is everything always against me?”
Great. I’ve seen all these monsters at least once this week, now how can I put these monsters to sleep? Because the truth is, no one likes being a monster. And if you do, well… I guess you enjoy misery and that my friend, is honestly quite sad.
Give us the Sleep Aid, already! Okay, here’s what I got so far:
Monster’s Sleep Serum – “I definitely felt kind of defeated by a few things this week which makes me feel like a loser. But largely, I had no control over them. I can’t really control what people think of our location for child care, nor can I control when people need our help, nor can I control how these things affect other prearranged commitments like the party we missed. In light of that, it’s okay to feel defeated, but also enlightening to know there is no logical basis for some big internal ogre, saying ‘You have to feel like a miserable loser FOREVER!'”
So, moving along. Now that the monsters are comatose by a heap of logic and personal enlightenment, let’s kill ’em!
The Headsman’s Ax – “Trying week to say the least. I felt defeated for a bit, but now I can’t wait to unwrap what the present holds.”
There we have it. Blogging Therapy.
I realize this wasn’t an apocalyptic-kind of week, but irritating nonetheless, and maybe it can be used to example a positive thought pattern so the next time monsters begin lurking inside we can subdue them before they destroy us and we eat our loved ones.
Remember, don’t just feel and react. Slowdown, think and respond.
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Here’s some scripture to meditate on if you’re reading this and want to see where the idea of slaying internal monsters comes from,
“For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God and take every thought captive to obey Christ,” II Corinthians 10:4-5